early morning training!

when i was at work today, i checked my text messages and i got a text message from the lady i've been talking to about a job doing breakfast shift at a hotel, since i'm pretty sure she said something about the front desk just being filled (the position i originally intended on working). i gotta train at like 5:15 am tomorrow, so i need to get right to bed so i can get enough sleep- i probably won't fall asleep until like 11 or 12 if i'm lucky. it doesn't really matter how early i lay down- my body can't seem to naturally fall asleep and for any geniuses who feel they're smart for the thought of sleeping meds- i've went through NUMEROUS sleep studies in the past and sleeping pills make me act fucked up. so take that solution outta your heads, einsteins. my cpap DOES actually assist me in falling asleep MOST of the time. so i'll have to have that on tonight. i was kinda looking forward to working front desk at the hotel but i suppose any job i can get to just get my foot in the door satisfies me. i'm not sure if that's why my job coach suggested i continue working at sabathani because the job i have there is more like the job types i want to work SINCE AN IDLE MIND IS DANGEROUS. (YES.. I DO KNOW FROM EXPERIENCE FOR YOU SMART ASSES WHO THINK THEY KNOW EVERYTHING.. I GOT A TBI AS A RESULT OF TRYING TO KEEP MYSELF BUSY which is also the reason why i've NEVER wanted to live in this state- too much down time and time for me to get into trouble). i told the lady who interviewed me for this breakfast assistant position that i seem to get in trouble when i'm not constructive and busy. which may actually be why she found this position for me instead of the front desk position i interviewed for- because they're always busy? i'm not sure. i haven't experienced the job to know exactly yet. like everything else i do- i'm gonna try my best to make it work for me.